Oct 26, 2010

Are you still mad? Part III

'This is a reflectional post, the song Are you still mad - Alanis Morissette has no video or story. so i gave it one'
in no way shape or form is this my own, (maybe a lil ^_*) carry on - enjoy and lemme know what u think.

Are you still mad I wore the pants most of the time? Not demeaning your manhood at all, but I felt some decisions I should take care of. I could’ve been wrong, but I had to keep a form of control. I didn’t want to be completely dependent and completely independent and you know how I felt about the grey area. Back then I was obsessed with being in control of every minute, I wouldn’t know what to do if something didn’t go according to plan. Now I found life goes easier on me if I let go and just accept the little bumps in the road.

Oct 22, 2010

Are you still mad? Part II

'This is a reflectional post, the song Are you still mad - Alanis Morissette has no video or story. so i gave it one'
in no way shape or form is this my own, (maybe a lil ^_*) carry on - enjoy and lemme know what u think.

Still sitting before me i continue by asking him.. 
Are you still mad I had an emotional affair? It was not what you thought at all. I would never leave you. I was simply reacting to something I found fascinating, and the chances of me leaving you for a figment of my wild imagination and subconscious was so unbelievably low. You didn’t know that back then but now, now all my infatuations revolve around you. 

Oct 20, 2010

Are you still mad? Part I

'This is a reflectional post, the song Are you still mad - Alanis Morissette has no video or story. so i gave it one'
in no way shape or form is this my own, (maybe a lil ^_*) carry on - enjoy and lemme know what u think.

I sat and waited, waited for him to return. True he hasn’t been back for what seemed like a few days but in reality they’re 3 years. I thought of everything I would say, I carefully studied every plan A, B or C I would use according to his answers, glares or even him walking away from me.

Oct 14, 2010

I want to be a Ballerina - Part II

At the Auditions:

I go in there & before anything starts, I'm super excited & I remember Saturday night fever, dirty dancing, grease, swan-lake, rent, beauty & the beast, Phantom of the Opera (all the musicals that made me WANT to dance)

Oct 13, 2010

I want to be a Ballerina - Part I

As a lil girl, I was typical I suppose. I wanted to have a pony, be a princess, be a ballerina & drink cosmos on the beach. What? Uhh yeah..blame Melrose Place..no my fault kthx.

Oct 11, 2010

Take me out of the damn concrete

It's so sad that all we have now is all this concrete.

It's heartbreaking, I remember moving to Jordan almost 15 years ago & it was all hilly & green. 

All these 'sand storms' & 'asthmas' people are suffering from are simply due to all the construction we are refusing to logically end(or at least pause).

11th Eurasia Conference on Chemical Science

Last Thursday I got a gig hosting the 11th Eurasia Conference on Chemical Science, now I am not a scientific person what so ever. It's pretty obvious, but what was not clear to me is why an event as big as this backed up by Jordan University had ZERO advertising?! I heard NOTHING about it.

Sep 25, 2010

too good for me

I’m just another girl in your memory
Could never be on a cover of a magazine
I tried so hard to be part of you every dream
Hoping one day you’ll be wanting to be with me

Sep 9, 2010

B complete

Some great pieces of advices i came across during life & thought of compiling and sharing. We all need reminding every now and then.

Just because no one has been fortunate enough to realize what a gold mine you are, doesn't mean you shine any less.

Just because no one has been smart enough to figure out that you can't be topped, doesn't stop you from being the best.

Just because no one has come along to share your life, doesn't mean that day isn't coming.

Aug 29, 2010

Some Wahad

sometimes a little something triggers a memory or a thought of you
it makes me wonder where you are or what you're up to

have you found what you are looking for?
is it still as it was before?

are you ok? are you happy? are you sleeping & eating well?
or are you still fighting to break out of your inner hell?

i miss reading your font on my screen or smelling the sarcasm in your tone
i miss seeing u flirt with other girls then wait till i get to laugh about it later on

whether in private or in public - you made me feel special
you raised the bar higher than i would've liked
& it was all with your lame first impression

you knew how to deal with me
you knew what to say
you never asked me to put up with you
or even begged me to stay

it took a lot of courage to admit certain things
i didn't want to believe a single word you said
i felt like dying when you said you wished you were dead

many a times i wish i never met you
because now i can't help then and again but
to think of you, dream about you

& wonder do i ever cross your mind - from time to time?
sometimes i shed a tear, sometimes i smile
most of the time i say nothing is wrong
hey, at least i try

you will always be up in your tower
i will be dancing in front of millions on the streets
you're anything but a coward

you're my sweet, breakable Quasimodo

Aug 25, 2010

A man wrapped up in himself makes a very small bundle

You will find, as you look back on your life, that the moments that stand out
are the moments when you have done things for others."
- Henry Drummond

Aug 23, 2010

Stop & stare..

Today while at a meeting at work, where all offices & meeting rooms are glass – (oh joy) there were 2 women a blond & a brunette. No that's not it, I started noticing all the men at work hovering around the meeting room they were in. and not in a subtle – ooh I'm just walking through here – but rather in the –holy f*ck there's a female & I'm gonna be a creep and just walk back and forth awkwardly while staring.

Aug 14, 2010

When NO means NO & not a MAYBE..

Boy meets girl, girl goes out with boy, girl decides that they're not compatible, girl says NO, guy thinks *SCOOOOORE* uhummm what? Reverse a bit there cowboy – NO means what?

Aug 13, 2010

Chapter Two: Dude where's my car... & passport?

We looked at each other and wondered oh dear effin god - We asked where his "friend" was, there was no one! We had to wait for a random car..!!! he opened the trunk & at least 5 men who looked like oil mechanics with a serious smoking addiction & hygiene issues dashed to collect our luggage.. 'HOLD IT' I yelled, 'no one do anything..where's your friend? & close the goddam trunk. You said you had *someone* waiting for us here, where is he?" "mafi 7addaaaaaa" no one is here..!!!!!!!!!!!

Aug 10, 2010

Chapter One: Dude where's my car... & passport?

I like to think of myself as a girl that can handle herself when traveling. Not the first time i travel by land, but might as well be the last time I do so. Paying extra money to be treated in a better & a more human & civilized way by plane sounds more than appealing. The past 3 days made me re-evaluate my priorities in many aspects of traveling. Went to Lebanon for the weekend, me and my friends, some flew in from Dubai, unfortunately we took a car from Amman/Jordan.

Jul 20, 2010

Where did this laziness come from?

I'm super lazy & I've been procrastinating one thing too many.

I used to commend myself on being able to juggle different errands & deadlines.
but since i haven't had much to do for a while it seems i can't even do more than one thing at the same time :-/

My sleeping hours have increased to well over 8hrs - I'm always too exhausted
is it the heat? I hate using ACs & fans give me a headache & make me nauseous, but then again I can't sleep when it's too hot. I'm confused, incoherent & bothered.

is it a pattern I've sunken into? i Have been doin minimal work for a while now that i feel i can't do the bigger tasks without breaking a sweat ..

i don't get it, don't like it, need to change it..help?


Jul 17, 2010

Why are Jews so powerful?

There are only 14 million Jews in the world; seven million in the Americas,
five million in Asia, two million in Europe and 100,000 in Africa. For
every single Jew in the world there are 100 Muslims. Yet, Jews are more
than a hundred times more powerful than all the Muslims put together.

Jul 10, 2010

Great Advice from my Mum

I'm so glad i have my mum to teach me the following, & I'm glad I'm able to share them with you.
well she sent it to me..but i prefer thinking it was a 'her-to-me' kinda tihing

Jul 4, 2010

فلسطين في موسوعة جينس

على اعتبار أن موسوعة جينتس للأرقام القياسية تجمع الأحداث والغرائب التي حققت أرقام قياسية تم تسجيلها لمختلف المجالات في العالم أجمع ، وكون أن الكيان اليهودي له خصوصية قد انفرد بها عن العالم وخرج بها عن المألوف في الممارسات والإجراءات!! بوصفه ' بدعة عالمية ' غير مسبوقة في النظام العالمي والقوانين الدولية ، الذي تعدى وتجاوز القوانين والأعراف والمواثيق في تأسيسه وقيامه ، وفي ممارساته وتشريعاته ، وفي حقوقه وواجباته .

Jul 3, 2010



By Yvonne Ridley

I wonder how many of you remember the hijacking of the Italian cruise ship the Achille Lauro way back in October 1985?

Four members of the Palestine Liberation Front took control of the liner off Egypt as she was sailing from Alexandria to Port Said.

Jun 16, 2010

Twitter Etiquette 101

It's really interesting to see the rapid development of social media networking. But I can't help but wonder if it had evolved all to quickly for many people.

Theirs is no 'Social Media Networks Etiquette 101" so many just wing it, and many get lost in what is appropriate and what is out of the question and unacceptable.

Jun 5, 2010

Like a scene from a movie

Like a thunder-bolt she stormed into the room.

Rushing in blindly, bumping into everything that stood in her way, or brushed by her heaving body.

May 24, 2010

The strength of a woman's heart.

No mater how strong a woman claims she is, once a man whispers sweet nothings into her ear it almost instantly softens her soul.

I was always proud of the fact that I can separate my emotions and feelings from my brain and common sense when stepping into a relationship; be it of a romantic nature or that of a modern world platonic relationship. 

Fear - & What of it.

I feared being alone
Until I learned to like myself.

I feared failure
Until I realized that I only fail when I don't try.

I feared success
Until I realized that I had to try in order to be happy with myself.

May 4, 2010

Under my WHAT?

Something is under your nose and can't see it? Of course not, it's UNDER my nose; I can maybe smell it or feel it hovering & brush it away.

Apr 22, 2010

My Worth

In a brief conversation, a man asked me; a woman he was pursuing, the following question, "What kind of man are you looking for?"

I sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye and asking "Do you really want to know?"

Reluctantly, he said "Yes."

I began to explain...

Apr 5, 2010


what is it with people wanting to see devastation, blood, gore and whatever may come with accidents?

one accident occurs and the amount of spectators exceeded the mentally acceptable norm.

They gather up, call each other, buy some snacks and munchies, hope it'll take a while because..well we all know it's a great excuse to be late for anything.. "umm, yeah on my way, there's just an accident - traffic jam (il share3 msakker).

Mar 18, 2010

Carson - Short Story

She lit her first cigarette of the day, looked at her computer, and began thinking of him; over there, far away, where he was.
Recalling random moments they had spent together, long walks in the late afternoon, endless nights of non-stop talking on the phone, conversations, tears, laughs & surprises. She sighed, put out her cigarette & got up to feed the cat.

Mar 15, 2010

أجمل ما كتب عن المرأة الفلسطينية

هي سيدة العالم الأولى!
على الرجال أن يخجلوا منها، وعلى القمر أن يتوارى...
أنحني وأقبل يد كل امرأة فلسطينية...

البنت الفلسطينية

من زمان غزة هيك وحتفضل أبدية
شبابها غلبان وبناتها أكثر عفوية
حكالى صاحبي بدي أتجوز
من بيروت أو الشام أو مصريه حكيتله وليه مال الغزاوية
جمال ومال ودلع ولا الحورية
والدلع فيهن صفة أبدية
طيب جرب إمشي ما بين الأزهر والإسلامية
ح تشوف غزلان تمشي وشعور غجرية
أدب وإحترام وكمان جامعية
شو تعرف إنتا عن الفلسطينيه!!! 

Feb 14, 2010

Wood Rats - freakishly true

WOOD RAT Horoscope
Feb 5, 1924 to Jan 23, 1925
Feb 2, 1984 to Feb 19, 1985

Rat people are so charming and attractive they are always surrounded by friends and admirers. They can also be lone tumbleweeds, seldom making lasting friendships. Known as Perfectionists, they never want to lose face. It takes an understanding friend to get them to "put on the dancing plumes." 

Feb 13, 2010

Being Twenty-Something

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like.

You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.

Feb 8, 2010

Please listen..

This is an oldie, at least 4 years old, i wrote for someone very close to me - it's worth mentioning, she has yet to read it.

Feb 2, 2010

rock paper what b*tch ?

Playing Rock, Paper Scissors gives me such a mental disorder and an uncomfortable brain twitch - i wish they would just ban it, along with many other pointless games. 

Jan 26, 2010

Fear & loathing on the streets of Amman

Don't you love textdrivers? You thought drunk-drivers were bad..but NOOOO..welcome to the new ultimate driver's fear, it comes to you in the daytime, afternoon or night. It comes in the form of ANY driver, of any age and background..IT IS SCARY BUSINESS